i really need to get more sleep!

darn, almost fell asleep in the meeting earlier on! damn hard to concentrate when u've just had lunch n been on your toes the whole morning, n my mind is on a 101 things to do n i feel like i can't handle it anymore.. haiz..

i think i'm close to my breaking point liao. sometimes i see my work n i just don't even want to touch it. i see the mass of emails n the phone rings off the hook n i let it ring n refuse to answer. this isn't the way i envisioned this job to be. sigh..

last night worked until 9.30 pm before going for practice, until about 12 midnight, n reached home around 12.45 am. slept prob around 1.30, n woke up at 7 am today to reach office early to prepare for meeting. my eyes are quite dry from the freezing air con in my room, but worse is that my eyes keep wanting to shut n my body is slow to respond to work, my brain is not thinking clearly n i'm making more mistakes than usual..

i'll be glad when 1 oct comes n i can finally get a day of rest. i haven't even apply for leave on oct 6 to take time off to celebrate my birthday with joan, who's also stressed about her school and finances, she has to work to pay off her own sch expenses, books, etc, n she can't cope with the work load as it is.

things aren't looking good Lord, how can i survive the week.. i really need your grace n strength, n to get thru the F1 weekend, i need more supernatural energy from You n motivation to perform my best for Yout oo.. its not about the glamour of F1 racing, its just another super hectic n tiring weekend for me. but i love it nonetheless, which is more than i can say for my job..