Dazed in the day again

damn sian.. last night supposed to go out play LAN games or catch a movie, but in the end all back out, n i worked until 8 pm so either way i simply wouldn't be able to go out.. but on the bright side, i managed to meet u with Joan for a nice dinner, I ate the usual chicken chop, and she ate some ban mian thingy. After that, had a donut before Joan sent me to the 163 bus stop n i took bus home.. still managed to play a game of Dark Crusade ("Go Space Marines! For the Emperor!!") of 3v3 before heading off for bed.

what a dull life! simply no more time to go out after work, or even if i have time, my energy is drained n i'm quite tired n listless after work.. prob due to mental stress than physical tiredness. i mean, how tired can i get from sitting in a chair typing all day? the only exercise i get is walking to the printer, walking to the toilet, or walking to the water dispenser to refill my cup, n once in a while walking to my boss or colleague's room. the mental stress however, is another matter altogether. i feel quite overwhelmed sometimes, like i'm so clueless n inexperienced. guess its like that when u first start working..

anyway Joan n i have been having weird dreams lately. i dreamt of losing my temper n doing some terrible things to Joan, she dreamt of betraying me n falling for some other unknown guy.. i don't get it, we seem totally fine n in love, i don't think there's any issue or problem between us, so why the weird dreams recently? i don't know, n i don't like it. its like some unseen force trying to draw us apart even though we're really closer than before. honestly, i've never felt happier with any other person in my life.