Merry Christmas everyone.. Happy Birthday Lord Jesus!

dear Jesus!

Happy birthday to You! really had a super tiring but super fun night playing for the strikeforce at the carnival!

Though its kinda sad, i don't really feel the Christmas spirit anymore.. as a child i used to really love Christmas, not cos of the presents, or the christmas trees, or the carols either, but it was more than all those... just felt that in december, there is really peace on earth, n everyone is somehow happier, n more joyful! now i finally realise the reason, is cos of the birth of Jesus, heaven must be having a really great celebration every 25th december!

Lord, i've been really disobedient and turned away from doing the right thing many times this year.. even this week itself, i did many wrong things, n felt so bad everytime i let You down, let Yujie down, let myself down.. at the beginning of the year, i really had such hope of becoming a CGL by the end of 2005, but then now.. not really where i wanted to be. But! nevermind.. as long as i still love You and still serve You in everyway i can, everyday, every time i can.. i believe i can be just as happy serving You in choir n strikeforce. i don't have to be a CGL to feel all proud n conceited! maybe thats why i couldn't be a CGL. cos i wanted to be one so much, i didn't ever think that perhaps it was my own selfish desires... n furthermore, no matter how much i wanted it n prayed for it, i never had the vision, the actual imagination, that one day i would be leading a group of young pple in church. Yujie often asked me, as pastor preached, can i visualize it? honestly Lord, i never could.

but its alright. cos tonight, everything's alright. thank You Jesus, for coming into the world, to die on the cross, to be a saviour to the world, to be a friend to me. yeah! with that in mind, i don't really have to worry about anything else. Thank You Jesus!! Happy birthday to You once again!

In Jesus name,
Amen!!