Weirdest dream I've ever had in a super long time!

What supposed to be a new ride at a theme park which went horribly wrong, or rather all to realistic. I suppose you can call it a zombie horror movie meets survivor.

Then is roughly about what happened, I can't remember the details exactly, but it was a new ride at the theme park which is supposed to be a combination of several different rides, simulators, and real-life dangerous situations.

Somehow weirdly, I went to the ride with my brother Weiliang and my cousins, of whom I can't really remember exactly how many, but I distinctly remember Stephanie becos she was seated on my left during the ride. My brother wanted to sit with us, becos I think there were about 3 seats per car, but he walked too slowly and ended up behind, i think there were about 4 cars moving off together at any one time.

And this ride, oh man, it was fantastic, there were no tracks or roads on which the car of the ride followed. It simply seemed to float thru the air, guided by some unknown mechanism. Really a ride of the future.

Ok so the ride seemed pretty docile and kiddy at first, becos it was just taking us through the usual scenes of human activities, families enjoying their time at home, people having lunch at macdonalds, children playing in the playgrounds. I even remember there were certain times when the ride stopped and a guide of the theme park led us through the maze of activities by foot. It was something like "Its a small, small world" showing us different aspects of life, but the people in the sets were almost too life like, too real and a little scary, all the plastic smiles on their faces. But anyway it was almost as if I was anticipating the ride to take a turn for the dark, for things to go wrong horribly. And I was right.

One thing i must mention is that the ride is awfully big. One room or one set could be as big as a expo hall, and the car we were sitting in simply cruised by several meters above the place, maybe about 10 meters or so above the ground, so we can view all the people going about their activities. And the walk-through part was even more amazingly detailed, it was like being in a real Macdonalds outlet, with the tables full of families, kids, teenagers, etc. Then was this part when we were passing a play ground, and many faces of little kids were looking through the nets at us smiling. And that was somehow unnervingly freaky.

Anyway suddenly the ride became fast and swerving, apparently the roller coaster part of the ride. We were almost jerked out of the car, and several times we were literally banging our shoulders at the sides of the car cos the violence of the swings and impact were so great, we felt a bit annoyed.

Then we suddenly came to a large scientific building which was very modern looking, large metallic shiny bots all over the place. apparently it was the place where secret experiments were carried out, of what type or how dangerous it was never explained. we could see the place only from a top view and it wasn't very interesting. Until there was an explosion and the place started to blow up!

Then the ride once more launched into a roller coaster of epic twists and turns, and the heat of the fire out be felt, threatening to catch up with our ride! If this ride was ever made into reality, it would be the most scary and exciting ride of all history!

But then this is where the scary and horror part of the dream starts. The ride apparently "crashes" into some houses along a china town street, which doesn't look at all like the china town we know in singapore, but more like the old streets in china. there were many shop houses connected in long rows, and a pavement ran between them. strangely, there were condominum units and modern buildings around as well, but not very high ones, maybe 3-4 storeys high at most.

We emerged from the ride looking quite stunned. There was no guide to help us. I think there were a group of about 10 of us, including my brother and stephanie. The cars simply refused to budge and we were forced to walk out of the place. Oh wait i think before the chinatown place, we were in some grassy open field. yeah i think thats it.. we crashed on some country side.

Then we walked around trying to get help, and this was the most freaky part of the dream.. suddenly it was as it it wasn't a ride in a theme park anymore, becos it seemed too real.

We walked around until we came to a more urban looking part of the place, where we saw several people walking around, not fake robotic people, but REAL people! some dressed in country clothes, some dressed casual, a few were in the office wear. a managed to talk to one guy who gave a few weird answers.

I asked where were we, what is happening and how do we get back to the starting point of the ride. He simply said that something weird was happening in the place and people were all rushing home, that the explosion which happened earlier released some sort of poisonous or radioactive gas which harmed several people. It became apparent that at the shopping mall, which looked suspiciously like a giant version of Center Point, that many people were still unaware of the "danger" and were shopping as per normal, but we still couldn't get any decent answers from anyone. and worse still, not all the people there were real! there were many "fake" robotic models, but acting like humans!as if this whole ride was some big game which wanted to confuse us or test our wits.

suddenly there were something like sirens and the announcer announced over the speakers that there was an emergency, and the store would be closing or shutting down operations in 10 seconds after the announcement, and people were advised to leave the building as soon as possible, becos there was an "external threat".

Within 20 seconds, every shop was shut down, metal grills and shutters clamped down on many exits, and people were frantically shouting and running about. I told my group not to panic, but also to take any available weapon we could find. I found a metal rod lying about some unfinished shop, and two metal nails which were about 10 inches long, which i put in my pocket for unknown purposes. my brother took a golf club, and my cousin took a wooden sign post, the rest of the group began to pick up things which could be used as a weapon. it was a scary sight, people screaming and banging away at the exits, nobody could do anything as we were locked in. I decided to lead the group upwards to see if we could find any exit to the roof and escape to another building from the rooftop. I'm not sure, but i think there were a few cellgroup members as well as some total strangers in the group.

While we were taking some escalators around the 3rd storey or so, suddenly a swarm of attackers began pouring into the first floor lobby and chasing the shoppers around, making them scream and run in a panic. Then to my horror, the attackers started BITING and TEARING the shoppers into pieces and EATING them alive! That was when I realised this is one big horror movie or something went wrong at the ride. It was a zombie fest dream and in this one I didnt have any weapons or guns to protect myself! It was a nightmare.

Obviously we panicked and ran up the escalators, pressing the emergency stop button, so it would be more difficult for the zombies to catch up with us, and thankfully they seemed occupied with the helpless shoppers at the lobby and hadn't bothered with us yet. Until we were at the 5th floor or something, near some cinema lobby, when the zombies uttered a roar and looked up at us! This was when I couldn't remember much of the dream, except that we were running through darkly lit corridors with flickering lights and a really scary atmosphere, not knowing when the zombies would catch up.

But somehow we escaped, jumped to the next building and kept leaping from building to building like some parkour experts or ninjas! it was amazing we had such stamina and energy, but i guess running out of breath is better than being meat for zombies. then we ended up in the chinatown like area.

we came into a sort of flat where there were this chinese family preparing for dinner, n they were speaking cantonese or something, but i asked them worriedly any idea how we could get out of this place, and they calmly invited us for dinner and totally ignored my question! we couldn't believe our eyes, we were being chased by zombies and there were probably more outside as we saw many people being attacked on the streets while we were jumping from building to building, most of them hardly fought back against the zombies. i couldn't understand the family's answer and went around their house searching for another way out, as the main door was alreay securely bolted. from room to room i went, until there was one window which overlooked a car park, where there was some vehicles in them, some old fashioned cars. i told the group to come over to jump out to the car park, when suddenly i saw a woman in red walking from the car park towards to house! i called out to her, and when she looked up and we could see her face when the wind blew her hair away, we freaked out.

it was almost a skeleton, with only one eye, with rotting flesh hanging from it. it was one of those zombies! and amazingly it spoke, " there is no escape for you human! we;re just about to come for dinner, as the family you met already knows..."

i glanced at the family with a look of desperation and realised they were all preparing not to cook dinner, but they were actually preparing to BE dinner! the youngest daughter spoke up in a most eerie and sinister way and said, "we are their dinner. we are all going to die and be eaten alive."

that was too much for me, i couldn't stand a young 5 year old girl waiting to die, so i picked her up and along with the group ran to the other end of the house hoping to unlock the front door and escape. but already there were thumping sounds from the front door!! uneaerthly groans and growls told us that the zombies were just outside now, and we had to escape through the windows once again!

we ran out of the window on the roofs of the chinatown shop houses, like ninjas, darting over the tile covered roofs of the really old buildings. suddenly one of our group slipped and fell over to the side, falling 2 storeys and hitting the ground with a cracking sound! we didn't even pause to look, becos we knew the zombies would devour him in mere minutes and there was no time to stop and sympathize with him, i was running for my dear life.

finally we saw the cars of the ride once again waiting for us at the side of the road! we hoped in and somehow, it automatically started up and flew away from the carnage in the chinatown! it passed by the macdonalds and the playgound which we earlier went past, but now it was in chaos, blood stains all over the glass walls, and the children which were smiling at us happily from the playground where still there, but now their faces a deathly blue-black with blood dripping from their mouths, still smiling at us and grinning widely. totally frightening and creepy sight.

but the ride didn't bring us to the starting point, it brought us to a city area, which resembled a bit like new york city! we landed in the middle of some sort of battle taking place, and we scurried to safety inside the buildings, while we watched the battle taking place on the streets. apparently there were armed soldiers firing their rifles at hordes of zombies, as well as zombies attacking some creatures, who amazingly looked like demons! while running from room to room to reach the highest floor once again, we encountered one demon fighting off about a dozen zombies, and though big as he was, he was having trouble with them and i actually stepped forward to aid the monster, although he looked like he would just rip us up as easily as the zombies!

with the metal rod, i struck the head of one of the zombies and it splattered open like a water melon, then i swung it around and connected with another zombie in the neck, almost cutting off its head, but not totally. soon the demon and i made short work of the zombies, and he explained to me what was happenning and why demons and angels were aiding the humans in their battle against the zombies.

apparently it was still not the time for the apocalypse and that the zombies were never supposed to be part of the plan for the final showdown between heaven and hell, so in accordance with their plan for the final battle, both sides decided to put an end to the zombie threat. but it had spread too far and too wide by then, and although the army was restraining the zombies to some extent, the problem was that there were too many innocent civilians trapped in their homes, barricading themselves inside safely, but with no way out.

it was a really bizarre situation, i never ever imagined being able to talk to a huge demon, who had the face of a bull, the size of a biggest wrestler i've ever seen, who could speak english with a UK accent!

but unfortunately, he continued, the humans never saw the demons and angels as helping them in the fight against the zombies, but mistook them for more enemies, so soldiers attacked the demons and angels whenever they could as well. and although the bullets and shells of the humans were of little effect against the undead zombies, they dealt considerable damage to the demons and angels, without them realizing that only the weapons forged by these alien creatures could effectively wipe out the zombies.

i think it was about this time when my alarm rang and i woke up.

Some theme park ride eh!

Been a long time Lord..

Since I posted on my blog.

Lord just had a long talk with Jaric.. Seems like he's losing faith in You.

Honestly I can't be bothered too much, cos I myself am losing my faith in You.

Well not that I don't believe that You don't exist, because anyone who thinks that there is no God is a fool, because all the evidence in the world points to the existence of a God, given the vast majority of people who actually have a religion, as opposed to the free-thinkers.. But somehow I don't believe that You are who the Bible says You are.

No offence intended, but I've not really changed much for the past 2-3 years, not spiritually, nor physically, or in any other way. Yeah sure I got attached, I performed a few gigs for Strikeforce n served You in the choir, cell group n many other areas. I brought a couple of people to church, even though none of them actually stayed. I did my part for Bible study, guitar playing, entertaining new friends, etc. Basically doing all the right things for the sake of doing those things, and not to please You. Or rather, just making sure I do the right things for the sake of not doing the wrong things.

But You know and I know that I do a lot of wrong things.

In spite of the clean n nice image i try so hard to portray in front of everyone, there's one person whom I can never kid.. that's You, Lord.

My life's in a mess. My thought life at least. I want to do the right things, but at the same time I want to yield to my fleshly desires. I want to do the spiritual things like praying n reading the Bible, but i'm too lazy and proud to admit I need help for those things. I want to help out more in cell group n bring in the integration of the new friends, but I also want to live my own life n enjoy the company of old friends, or even my girlfriend, than have to force myself to entertain a bunch of irritating pple whom i've not even met, n in all probability won't even bother speaking to in any other situations.

I'm really sleepy after talking to Jaric n it made me realise how much of a bad person I really am, that i can talk all i can about believing God exists, and yet not acknowledging His presence in my life outside of church.

I'm sorry Lord but sometimes I can't just help but wonder: do You really expect me to do great things for You when I can't even perform the small little duties that You ask of me? I can't even stay pure and holy for more than a few days at a stretch before i fall into sin n temptation again. what use am I to You? And I feel very much like asking the reverse question, what use are You to me?