the end of an era?

last night Boon had a meeting with various members of the Strikeforce to pass the motion (hahaha) that.. hehz, well, i'll keep it under wraps for now. but basically things won't quite be the same, which came as something as a shock to most of us. anyway most of us were in agreement with Boon's proposal, for a variety of reasons. but some interesting comments..

Perception of the Strikeforce from the viewpoint of church members hasn't been too positive. Somehow many pple still have the idea that ministry means serving on sat or sun in some part of the church, catering to the needs of the church, and doing "church" things. usher, children's church worker, musician, choir member, tv crew, sound crew, attributes, etc.. and they wonder why strikeforce has practice every sunday at riverwalk, but we never perform in church. they ask me, actually what is strikeforce all about, what do you do? how can a group that performs outside of church be considered ministry? how can you be paid? how do you know you're not doing it for the money and not for God? questions from church pple and even non-church pple.

which brings me back to the cultural mandate. to penetrate the marketplace, to be salt and light of the world.

is a Christian businessman who runs a sucessful big company considered as serving in a ministry? is he serving God when he's at his office or at a meeting or having agolf game with clients?

ministry is ministering to others, being a servant, a worker, so that others may enjoy your service and be ministered to. like what pastor kong always says, a Minister is a civil servant, they are there to serve us, not their own needs.

and yet they are paid hundreds of thousands for their service. they justify the salary for good results.

then pple will say ministry should be done out of love for God and not materialistic gains, you should serve without any gains.

to these pple, i ask them, then why not go an quit your job n work full time in church for zero salary? is that what ministry really is? serving at the expense of yourself for the benefit of others?

i think pple don't really understand how deep and wide the cultural mandate goes. they should all go n read Peter Wagner's book, the church in the workplace. by "they", i mean especially cell group leaders.

even yujie n rosa (two very spiritually mature close friends of mine who are business pple, have led or helped cell groups, led ministries, and worked with Pst Tan and other ZS closely before) have comments on the standard of cell group leaders now. but that's beside the point n for another blog entry.

the marketplace ministry simply means this: by excelling in whatever you're doing that's outside of the church and blessing others with your gifts, talents and abilities, you are glorifying God and serving His will, by impacting the people around you in a godly manner.

you're NOT out there to declare you're a christian first, n then try to find ways to hook them to come to church or seduce or force them to attend bible study or cell group or church service. pastor kong said himself, when we help pple, its with no strings attached, no ulterior motive to convert them or force God down their throat.

if u excel in your job n your family n whatever you do, pple will naturally be drawn to you and then you tell them the secret of your success, God!

4 pm on a friday n my colleagues have work overload.. poor chaps.

some clients are really unreasonable. monday is deepavali, a public holiday, and they want to sign an agreement on monday, and will only be sending out the agreement this evening! its ridiculous, so they expect us to work over the weekend, and come back on monday with comments on the agreement, n then to witness the signing of the documents. i mean, don't these pple have a life?? even if they don't have the holiday (as they're in another country) they can at least try to understand that we're having a public holiday in singapore, isn't it? blood china pple can be damn unreasonable..

i mean, not like i'm affected, thank God. in fact i'm so free today I was on facebook n youtube n hotmail n now i'm blogging trying to kill some time until 6 pm when i go off. i mean, its really unbelievable for some pple to demand n expect u to work overtime like that. i hope my clients or the pple i deal with aren't so anal n crazy.. hongyee get to escape cos he's going back to KL to celebrate his birthday, Ruby is going to hongkong, so only my boss n shuhon n the secretary coming back during the weekend..

but on a seperate note, i really am sleeping from quite a full lunch, i can't see my boss becos she's so freaking busy running from meeting room to printer to her room, i think they're having a meeting now, along with a conf call. i think its quite ridiculous earlier, there were like 6 of them cramped into a small room having a conf call when they could've just moved to the meeting room.

anyway my firm is gonna have some renovation as the litigation department is coming over from the other side. good thing is, we don't have to move to club street. bad thing is, the corridor might get smokey, knowing the smoking habits of the litigators. plus there are going to be more pple walking up n down the corridor, means less privacy n harder for me to slack off liao. haha! but at least i won't have to change mrt at raffles to tanjong pagar and wake up 15-20 min earlier anymore.

weather has been really shoik for sleeping recently, thats why i woke up at 8.40 am this morning, instead of my usual 7.30 am! i overslept for an hour n was late for work, reached office only at 9.30 am ,but thankfully boss was so busy i don't think she noticed. =P or at least i hope she didn't notice. she's in a really foul mood now, no doubt from the arguements going on in the meeting, plus the fact that she'll have to come back to work during the weekends. puikwan n i don't dare to look for her to vet our documents, when she is in a mood like that! this sucks big time, that means i can't do anything the whole day until i clear my stuff with her.

oh well, now its already almost 5 pm, so in about 1 hours' time i'm packing my stuff n waltzing out of here.. to go for cell group. sigh. if not for the obligation, i wouoldn't go liao. more n more i find it quite a waste of time, time which i can spend enjoying myself with friends, clubbing, or doing more normal things which pple my age does. i suppose the fellowship is supposed to help, but i'm not exactly close to the CG pple either, aside from Qingni n Soohuei. complaining isn't gonna help of course, n changing cell group doesn't help either, so I'm just going to see how it goes. its like, i'm losing all interest in the typical CHC lifestyle. not that i'm losing interest in God, I still pray n seek Him n i do enjoy biblical theories n bible study which intrigues the mind (and not some repetition of principles which i've already been taught), but there's just so much reluctance to participate in CG stuff. its like, how do i put it nicely, an obligation n no longer a joy. well they always preach discipline, forcing yourself to do things because you know its good for your spirit, i can't remember the exact steps, but i think its decision=>duty=>discipline=>delight, or something like that.

i know i'm making the right choice to continue to struggle to go for cell group n bible study, but having no motivation isn't gonna help me struggle for very long.

Long weekend is coming soon!

Watched L - change the world last night with Joan, after having dinner with Mikki and Jazz. Jazz is some magician guy who's a little bit weird, but I guess is a nice guy. Haven't seen Mikki since my birthday dinner, and oh man, she hasn't aged a day since 2004 when we were in the same cell group! still the ever youthful and cute Mikki with that cheeky smile, no wonder so many guys chase her lah. heard the latest one is called Andy n he's a guitarist in the zoneband or something. *shrug* don't think Mikki's interested in anyone at the moment though.

oh yes, attending a meeting on behalf of my boss cos she had to look after her son who was sick, n it was quite scary attending a AGM without my boss, n its quite boring as well, becos apart from the 2-3 pple in the company which i know, the other members attending the meeting are all unknown to me, n being in a totally different industry, i can't see how i can talk to them. anyway expected it to end at 5, but since it started 15 min later, it ended close to 5.30 instead, but still to be able to get out of the office, is really a refreshing experience. n when I met joan to buy my umbrella n return my book, just so happened we bumped into Mikki n Jazz n had dinner with them at KFC.

thank God for good friends like Mikki, who never ceases to put a smile on my face, though she may be 6 years younger than me, but i still click with her better than many of my peers.

had a slight arguement with Joan over some issue n i realise i need to learn how to see the whole picture before i start to voice my opinion, n often i jump to conclusions when she doesn't tell me all the details. we're quite different, i'm always surging ahead, quick thinking, fast pace of life, whereas she's more relaxed, take things slowly, more concern about relationship than situation. so learning to compromise is really an important skill in a relationship, something i've not quite mastered yet. haha.

A Merchant's Diary (fiction from Warhammer 40k)

I wish I had never stepped foot on the Tau vessel this morning to negotiate the trade deal.

True, it was worth about 3 billion dollars, but when my life's on the line, hey, I'm out the door before you can begin to say "the Emperor protects".

But of course, things didn't turn out the way I expect today. As usual. Good thing I had that funny feeling when I was getting dressed this morning, and that frak jacket under my tunic probably saved my life at least once today. Not to mention my laspistol, which was given as a gift from that old friend of mine Demento Cain, a son of the famous hero of the Imperium, Commissar Ciaphas Cain. He said that this was a blessed laspistol which had shot insane Chaos worshippers, maurading orks, scavenging tyranide creatures and even a daemon from the Warp. Perhaps it was this pistol that really saved my life today, though I doubt such a small arm would have mattered in the scale of things.

Let me start at the beginning, I'm getting ahead of myself once again.

My partners and I were negotiating a deal with a Tau trader over a couple thousand barrels worth of amasec, as it seemed like our alien friends had developed a taste for fine alcohol. Though few humans would dare to trade with aliens and their unknown intentions (not to say that human merchants were any less scheming and would rob you blind the moment you let down your guard), I found this Tau merchant to be exceptionally trustworthy. We had brokered several deals before, and he or rather it, had never renegaded on its promises to deliver payment and goods as according to the contracts. M'kdash was its name, though I could never pronounce it properly, settling for a easier nickname "Dash" for it (which it appeared to like, though I never knew why).

So there we were, a group of human and Tau merchants, merrily doing business aboard the Tau vessel (we were getting quite a bargain, a ship load of new machinery and technology for a couple barrels of my cheapest wine which of course the Tau, with all their intelligence and technology, failed to detect) when I received a message from my aide, a former members of the Imperial Guard's ghost squad, whom I trusted to handle rocky situations.

I almost choked on my drink when I read the words on the data slate, and had I reacted a minute later, I wouldn't be in this miserable cell on board a space marine battle cruiser writing this down. I'd probably be fuming and dead, on my way to the Warp to atone for my misdeeds and other miscellaneous smuggling, killing and criminal activities.

Effects of music, speech, thoughts on water crystals.. psuedo-science or facts?

Sometimes I think people are really too easily awed.

Did some research on Dr Emoto's experiments on water crystals, and found that they're generally rejected by scientists as being "psuedo-science" for lack of controls, improper procedures, varying results, and various other reasons.

But then again, even if it isn't factually-proven science, his theory does seem to explain a lot of human behaviour, assuming that the bulk of a human being is made up of water.

If music and words influence the shape and creation of water crystals, how much would music and words shape and influence carbon-based cells?

Although his research doesn't come out with any detailed scientific thesis or results that can be 100% repeated in any situation, it does give any person food for thought.

The Bible says, life and death is in the power of words. As a man thinks, so is he. believe and confess, and you will have whatever you pray for.

not so bad.

things aren't as bad as i imagined them to be. thank God for that.

of cos, not everything is rosy n not everything's good n well with the world, but at least i can make an effort to deal with the issues n not just bitch about it.

had lunch with eunice ding today. honestly, felt a little weird. i think she felt it too at the beginning. we were so close like siblings a few years ago, but today at lunch it feels like we're almost strangers. isn't that sad? its like, we had a million things to say to each other but at the same time we conversed about casual topics first rather than jumping into the issues that we really wanted to talk about.. like her job, how bad they treat the employees, her struggles with her boyfriend, my arguements n differences with joan n some church pple, my job dissatisfaction, etc.. we did manage to get to talking more freely but only while drinking coffee at starbucks did we really open up to each other.

it was good, i really enjoyed catching up w her, n we both really wanted to make this lunch happen. it has been a good 3-4 months since i last met her.

but why was there this.. invisible wall between us? like we're afraid to talk to each other like we used to when we were both helpers in the cell group, when we both loved Jesus n served Him with all our heart. like we're afraid to admit to each other that now, we're no longer living the same life for Him. that we're struggling a little in our walk with God, we're struggling with our job, our relationships with our other half, n basically life got tougher.

after lunch at the jap place (thanks to Eunice for the belated birthday treat!) we hadn't really conversed about the main issues yet? it was more like reporting on what happened in the past few months, cordial n formal. i don't understand what made us talk like that. perhaps it was meeting at raffles place, in the middle of a working day, dressed in business attire?

but at starbucks, we finally began to talk about the issues that mattered. she told me something which i was shocked, n which she herself was badly shocked when she found out, something not so nice about mr YJ. sigh, i must say i am disappointed in him. i always thought he was better than that, that he wouldn't conform n give in to wordly practices. but anyway, it was weird, i was telling her how i made Joan upset n how blessed i am to have her although we're really different in some areas, n eunice was like telling me she loves YJ to bits but she isn't sure if he's the one she's gonna marry. fairy tales differ from reality after all. nevertheless, we managed to crack a few jokes n laugh, n that broke the ice, enabling us to really communicate like siblings once again.

but we were talking about different our lives are now compared to the past, n she actually said i now have a lot of pride, n actually she did too. thats why working adults lose their passion for God, become arrogant n unspiritual. some pride is good, self-confidence is necessary to succeed in the working world, but pride of life is wat makes us distance ourselves from God.

we had a 1.5 hour lunch break n were reluctant to get back to work, but well, work is work. i must catch up more with her, before i move to the new place, which is like damn far away from her.

i'm a mess now..

who i am hates who i've been? more like who i've been hates who i am now..

after a few days of non-stop quarrelling n arguements.. what do u expect me to say or do?

i'm tired, freaking sick n tired, physically, mentally, spiritually.

bet u didn't see this coming, that i'm not mr nice guy all the time, i've got a limit, i've got a temper, i've got some bad skeletons in the closets. so what? who doesn't?

just leave me the frak alone if u wanna preach to me, then go find someone who's willing to listen n give a damn. i'm not a naive little kid who listens to everything that everyone says to me anymore, i've got my own life n i make my own decisions, if u think u're so much wiser n spiritual than me, then i've two words for you - UP YOURS.

every job is tough, is that all u can say when i'm under stress? haha.

yeah well but not every job makes u a hated personality even before u have a chance to say a word. sure the money's good, but at what cost?

i've seen the true colours of humans, they're just out to make use of you, or they're out to backstab u the moment they see the weakness.

even christians see the world through tainted lenses. everyone has a prejudice. what equality n fairness? what righteousness n partialness? PLEASE.

i'm here by the ocean waiting for proof that there's sunsets and silhouet dreams..
my sandcastles fall like the ashes of cigarettes.. is everyone here make believe..
this deafening silence means nothing to noone but me.

time seems to fly past on weekends! really it does!

well what an eventful weekend! once again, had no time to really rest n relax n just slack at home, was busy the whole weekend from friday night till sunday night, n once again after meeting with rosa, she posed some serious questions that i've yet to find the answer for.

friday night, spent the whole day doing some proof reading at the printer's office, was quite enjoyable talking with the clients n working with them for the whole afternoon. lunch was provided by the printer, very hospitable n nice woman. chicken rice with 3 side dishes, was really quite full after that! anyway i'm glad that the clients r quite nice pple who r down to earth. quite sad that their rights issue is launched at the wrong time. =P

anyway met qingni or Ashley's new boyfriend at holland village on fri night after cg, n oh man, was quite funny cos her friend tried to hit on me when she heard i was a lawyer! also, qingni's boyfriend, Raymond or something, he speaks with ang moh slang n seems like a nice guy, but joan thinks he's a bit fake or trying too hard to be nice in front of his girlfriend! haha.. later some drunk guy came n sat at our table, thank God we were already about to leave. crazy fellow, just came to our table n asked for a drink.

sat was spent shopping with joan, then we went to perform for the MINDS school for mentally disabled kids. was quite a funny gig was well, irenus while doing tag team crashed into darryl TWICE n cut her lip, n they both stoned there for a few seconds after the crash. haha. only 8 pple played, it was tight, but FHW was a bit soft, only Joan played support w tom. after that we unloaded the stuff for MTT from studio n wanted to get some cake frm Obolo. Irenus said "oh, bo loh!! (means no more in dialect!)" super lame! hahah..

sun morning Joan n i were both a little sick, runny nose n headache, so we were late for service, but not bad lah, can sit behind sound console, quite good seats. Pastor preached about the recession n being proactive to make things work out for us, even in bad times like this.

after svc, went for MTT where we did some video shoot for the vietnam client, n then learned chow kiat's new sequence. haha. celebrated drew's birthday in style also, with break dancing n stuff, it was really fun n enjoyable!

woke up at 7 am to rush to work today to lodge the OIS, now feeling a little sleepy n tired, can't wait to go home n sleep, but tonight got to celebrate yishan's birthday at botak jones at braddell first, i'll prob leave by 9.30 pm latest. wanna get some personal time to think things over n pray!

issues like when to ROM, when to change job, how to improve on my working style, the HDB loans for the house, etc etc.. like 101 things to do list which doesn't grow shorter ever, only longer! haiz.. =P

Playing the guitar n piano after a loooonnnnnnngg time.

last night i reached home rather early after dinner with my colleagues, i think about 10 pm or so. had some free time, so i went to play a bit of piano n try to play a mayday parade song, 3 cheers for 5 years, it was in B, so i transposed it to C so its easier to play. haha! then played a bit of guitar, but i'm not as fast as i used to be, can't get the strumming pattern right for certain songs too. gotta practice more liao, for that gig on 8 November. live band with my bro n his friends! not sure what songs they're playing yet, but just gonna hone my skills these few weeks first.

oh yeah, i'm so excited at getting my mayday parade CD on sunday! haha! maybe i'm a little too old to be listening to punk emo music, but who cares, i like the raw energy n the cracking emotional singing, simple lyrics n harmonised singing.

a long celebration over the weekend!

Thank God for a really enjoyable birthday weekend! I don't think I've had this many celebrations ever! Hahaha.. dunno why pple tend to tone down their celebrations when they get "older", i believe u should have bigger n better celebrations each year, i mean, don't u go from glory to glory in everything? haha.. its biblical to have celebrations man, God Himself had so many celebrations in the bible! grinz

Wed - dinner at waffle town with ex-cg members (see earlier post)

Sat - dinner at Jade restaurant with family, aunt, cousins, then went to ben & jerry at dampsey road, totally cosy n relaxing atmosphere w excellent icecream. funny thing happened, my uncle n auntie wanted to surprise me n went down to chinatown ktv (which was cancelled but we didn't inform them cos we didn't know they were coming!) but in the end realise we weren't there n we went to drop off Stevie at their house n met them there instead. haha.. miscom again. but i did get a couple of angbaos, so yeah! had my 2nd birthday cake (mango)

Sun (actual birthday!) - celebrated bdae with cell group after svc, went for MTT where Boon gave me the SF birthday "samba" treatment with a super long scary drum solo, n then gave a treat to some of the SF pple, more than expected turned up (i think there were about close to 30 pple who turned up when i invited like 16? hahaha..) but still it was alright, didn't burn too big a hole in my pocket. haha. thanks to Robin for covering the drinks! received a few presents, pretty touched n glad for them, but i really really loved the card, as simple as it was. i guess to me presents don't mean as much as words from a person's heart. hehz. after dinner went jalan jalan w a few other SF pple (nic, liting, rohan, christine, millie, ian, joan n myself) at city link n marina square, and had icecream for dessert again! haha met melissa there too. cookie n cream mudpie, really good. totally enjoyed myself with the SF pple on sunday evening. oh yeah, had my 3rd birthday cake! mango as well, chosen by the SF girls. haha.

Mon (6 October) - special day with Joan. went to work in morning but it was ok lah, only less than 2 hours n my boss said i only need to apply half day for the afternoon off so yeah! visited the ZOO! had mac lunch n took like a hundred pictures there, though most were of the animals n joan! haha.. had kfc for tea n Thai express for dinner, then watched a movie before sending Joan home. still have not received my present from her cos she said its taking a long time to prepare! hahaha.. its ok, Joan is the best present i can ever ask for already, thank You Lord! oh yeah, we got tickets for night safari as well since its only $17 package with zoo entry.

to all those who gave me presents: thank you guys so much, i really didn't expect to get so many presents this year, i really appreciate the thought n effort in getting it!

to all those who attended my birthday celebrations: thanks for being a part of my 26th birthday, and many more to come!

to God: thank You for always being with me throughout the years, for Your presence n joy in my life, for the people you've brought into my life, and for the things yet to come!

Fashion and God - whats the link?

Yeah i know its totally weird to blog about something like that on 5 October 2008, at 1.30 am in the morning, when i should be happy about celebrating my birthday with my family n friends.

and of cos, i had a great time watching movie and having supper with Joan, Melisa, Millie n Ian, and slept until 12 noon before going on a shopping spree with Joan, she gave me $200 credit to buy whatever i like and we spent 2 hours walking around city link and marina square, and eventally bought 2 shirts from Clubmarc, 1 t-shirt from Zara and 1 pair of shoes from some shoe shop i don't even know the brand, but i like the design. then went to Jade room restaurant for dinner with my family n cousin Stevie, supposed to go KTV after that but cancelled cos another 2 cousins couldn't make it (honestly i wasn't annoyed cos i think KTV so often is a little bit boring, hahaha!) so we went to Ben & Jerry at Dampsey road instead, to enjoy ice cream, apple pie, nachos and the live band, actually it was a singer with a guitar, micheal wong or something, and he was pretty good! sounds almost like Jason Mraz, for a local singer i think thats amazing. had a great time with my family n friends, thank God for such wonderful loving people in my life.

Yet, i still need to blog about something that has been at the back of my mind since friday's cell group msg. and oh yes, i'm going to offend pple with this post, but i've discussed the whole issue with Joan for an hour or so today, and with my cousin from FCBC as well (he's leading a small group of youths and is part of TOUCH community services).

Its basically about the sudden talk about fashion during cell group. and its not chit-chat fellowship kind of talk, its a cell group discussion n forms part of the sermon. of cos, a minor part of the sermon, and Kenneth did share soemthing that really impacted me as well, the reversal of the worldly 3 Gs : gold, glory and girls, into the Christian lifestyle 3 Gs : God, goals and growth.

but anyway it was the talk and comments on fashion that really irked me. 3 questions:

1. what kind of fashion impresses you
2. what do you consider common and mediocre
3. what kind of fashion is distasteful

does this sound like part of a sermon? alright, given the benefit of the doubt, it can be about wearing your best for church, dressing up n looking sharp for God, so we not only give him the best worship n offering during service, we look our best for Him as well. sounds pretty much the usual doctrine of a spirit of excellence.

but when comments start coming about how "i really hate girls who wear baggy jeans" or "guys should not wear berms to church" or "i can't stand girls who wear ear rings big enough to put a parrot on" or "an example of mediocre dressing? our whole cell group" or even the ultimate "example of common and mediocre fashion - points at cell group leader!" the criticism flys, the pple who think they know fashion like they are the fashion police, "guys must always gell their hair" or "girls always look better with makeup" or many other statements that were made that honestly i didn't agree with, or even if i agreed with, felt that it has nothing to do with God.

the rationale behind the sermon is that service 4 pple are dressing sloppily to service, our leaders want to address the issue n suggest that we dress better, buy nicer clothes and listen to other pple's opinions on what is appropriate and what is not.

since when did your outward appearance become more important than your inward attitude toward God?

for that matter, since when did Ed Hardy and Skin become associated with cell group leaders, or wannabe leaders in the church?

yes, Sun brought that brand into SIngapore becos she liked it n those designs are one of its kind in singapore, so that is a good thing. bringing creativity and diversity into singapore fashion, excellent!

but why does every city harvest CGL have a longing to own a Ed Hardy or Skin apparel? or even better, as another friend of mine puts it so aptly, the "welcome to the Ed Hardy club" present when a new cell group leader is appointed.

but isn't fashion a matter of personal preference n taste?

i like the wear flowery n "ah beng" kind of clothes which no doubt some will find distasteful. do i need to please them in order to bring glory to God in my dressing? do i need to spend money on new "fashionable" clothes just becos i want to look trendy n by "looking trendy i can glorify God"? (quotations from actual pple)

don't get me wrong, i'm not against wearing nice trendy clothes to church. i'm totally fine with that, dressing well does give pple a good impression, BUT!

spending over half an hour during cell group discussing on fashion tastes and trends, criticising what other pple like to wear or trying to dictate what is considered "fashionable", is, in my opinion, a waste of time, n not only that, encouraging pple to judge themselves based on what others think, and not what God thinks. why spend so much time discussing on superficial issues and personal preferences, rather than exploring biblical principles that will help us understand why dressing well is important?

will God love a person more if he wears Ed Hardy shirts, as compared to a person in plain t-shirt and jeans? honestly isn't the answer painfully obvious?

and does the church expect everyone to be sharp dressers who have the best fashion sense, who wear ridiculously over-priced clothes and hideously fake smiles? is that really such a major factor in reaching out to the lost?

honestly i think some pple look like crap when they try to follow fashion magazines n wear whatever they think is the latest fashion, or if they are trying to be "emo" with thick mascara (even guys) n gothic lolita clothes with fishnet stockings n other weird stuff. but hey, if they wanna dress that way in order to dress their best for God, who am i to judge them? do i try to tell them my opinion n force them to submit to what i think they should be wearing? or are they even bothered by what other pple are perceiving about them?

at the end of the day, what you wear doesn't make you a Christian, its what you say and do, its who you are, on the inside, where pple can't see, where only God can see.

birthday weekend coming up!

oh man, its 5.20 pm already n the weekend is a mere 40 min away! sweet! hahaha.. damn sian now man, actually quite sleepy n feel like dozing off for a few min, but every now n then the phone rings n jolts me up wide awake! damn i'm getting tired easily these days at work. but then again, its definitely not what i envisioned myself to be doing as a lawyer, doing complicated paperwork, but nonetheless, still paperwork! LOL!

at least i got a movie at 12.30 am to look forward to! hope its a good show n doesn't disappoint or put me to sleep!

right, gotta get back to work n finish off my stuff before 6 pm!

celebration 1 n 2 on 1st october!

boss not in again today! haha.. shoik man. can relax this few days. grinz.

celebrated puikwan's birthday at brewerks at clark quay. quite expensive meal, n i had a glass of fruit beer which tasted a bit funny. got quite sweaty n a little whoozy after that, but overall had a good time with pk n friends. haha.

after dinner, watched Painted Skin with joan, ian, millie, melisa, nic, n one of millie's friend, i think her name is weiwei or something, on tues night. quite average, nothing terribly fantastic about the show. its not a bad show, but its not good as well, its like watching a 2 hour chinese kungfu-romance-supernatural flick with big names in the cast but quite a predictable storyline.

reached home at about 3 am n slept till 12 noon, then went for a nice shabu shabu japanese lunch with family, mindice n joan. oh well i guess sooner or later they'll be family too. haha. nice food, but quantity quite small, roughly $30 each, not too bad. better than the $300 set lunch at the other chinese place.

went home, watched another horror movie with joan which was so boring i nearly fell asleep in front of the tv, then went to meet ex-cg members (n 2 sf pple) for dinner at waffle town. not bad lah, joan's 2nd year running organising outing for my birthday! pple who turned up were: Mikki, Michelle, Clarence, SK, BK, weiken, bowen, mark, millie, ian n of course my beloved joan, who went to get a chocolate cake before coming. =)

had a nice dinner with them, took quite a few pictures (uploaded on facebook, awaiting the rest from mikki's camera) n everyone went home at about 10.30 pm. clarence n sweekeng went to tan tock seng to report sick n get MC, but in the end not successful. hahaha.. BK n small kenneth came over to watch bleach movie at around 1 am, watched until 3 am. oh man!! i was super sleepy i almost fell asleep again, if not for the absolutely cool action scenes in the movie! hitsugaya was quite weak in it, n i'm getting abit sian of watching Ichigo as the main character all the time, n the plot is actually quite weak with lots of loop holes, never explain much on the new characters introduced. think i will borrow the movie from BK n watch again, when i'm more awake to enjoy it better! think even joan will like it.

quite an eventful holiday, if i should say so myself. haha!