Monday, June 30, 2008

Dealing with working life

Today's 30th June, and I've been officially working for 1 month in the company. Well actually I've worked for around 7 months already, but the last 6 months was pupilage period, so I was sort of "allowed" to make mistakes. that apparently doesn't apply to me now.

Damn sian, getting blasted first thing in the morning on the first day of the week. Hope tat doesn't set the pace or the mood for the week.

I really cannot imagine working like this for the next 10 years or so.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

The Blazing Angels - the abandoned Chapter of the Space Marines

Captain Rico Vondutech wiped his red power armour vigorously, trying to get off the blood stains of the tyranides off. The greenish blood of the tyranides covered his armour and bolt gun, some pieces of tyranide flesh still stuck to his chain sword, a small piece still writhing with life. He glanced at the remainder of his Marines and muttered a quiet prayer to the Emperor, thankful that slightly more than half of his company still remained.

An apothecary strode up to the Captain, wanting to see if he had sustained injuries, but the Captain merely stood up to his full height and addressed the apothecary. "Casualty report and injury report on the remaining Marines."

Apothecary couldn't help but gaze with admiration at the huge bulking Captain, if just for a split second. Apothecary James McGillan had been assigned to several different companies over the years since his 20 year stint at the Imperial Guard's Medical Center on planet Kronus. He had seen warriors from different Chapters before and tended to their wounds or carried them off to be incinerated. He had served under Captains and Generals of the Imperial Guard and Navy, battled against Orks and other aliens. Yet he realised that there was something different about Captain Rico. It wasn't just that he stood taller than most Marines at the height of 2.2 meters, or that he had only 2 golden studs over his left eye showing his youth as a Space Marine, or that he had a rumour passed about him that he was once accidentally thrown from a Thunderhawk, survived the fall, and survived in an Ork-infested jungle for 1 whole week before the rescue squad came - only to find that he had single-handedly taken down an Ork stronghold while waiting her his pickup vehicle to arrive. Apothecary James could only imagine the brave Captain, standing over the fallen Warboss of the Orks and in the center of a bloody battlefield littered with dozens of dead Orks. He also sense something about this Captain, that perhaps he was more akin to a Librarian, given his heightened physic awareness and abilities. Normally, the Codex would never allow one such as him to rise the ranks to Captain, as he would've been chosen to serve under the Grey Knights or the Inquisition with his rare gift. Yet, James did not know that Rico hated his psychi abilities, condemning it as blasphemous and filth before the Emperor.

"Your status report?" reminded the Captain looking not the least bit annoyed but glowing with the glory of the Space Marines.

James quickly snapped to his senses. "31 Marines killed in action, 17 sustained crippling injuries which require some time to heal, 23 sustained minor injuries and 29 are undamaged. Sir, may I see your wounds to add to the final status report?"

Rico grunted and replied, "So we have a fighting force of 52, without including you and myself. I would say we have a small chance of victory, but I wouldn't get your hopes too high, apothecary. You saw for yourself what we are up against."

James only had to turn his head a little to the side to peak from the cover of the damaged Land Raider to face his darkest nightmares again. "Yes sir. But we will fight for the Emperor nonetheless!" he muttered, with faltering confidence in his own words as he saw the third tyranide swarm approach in the distance. They were probably still about 10 miles away at least, but their numbers surged in the thousands - a huge thronge of pinkish, brownish vicious creatures with sharp talons and claws. Lethal killing bio-mechanical creatures controlled by the hive mind, they felt no pain and lived only to serve the hive mind's purpose - to feed and multiply.

"Come on, let's prepare for battle. They'll be upon us in an hour's time. I want our men fighting fit and our weapons primed and ready 15 minutes before they come within firing range. Do your job apothecary." Rico walked over to where his sergeants stood, wandering how many of them would be left standing when night falls - and the unimaginable nightmare of those creatures attacking the survivors in the dark. "Emperor grant me strength!" he muttered.

***

1st Sergeant Panasius wasn't in the best condition. His adomen was pierced by some creature's frenzied attack and although the blood had clotted and the skin tissue was already healing, the insides were still damaged and pain streaked through his body when he moved. But to the stranger, nobody would've think that he had suffered such a wound, as he walked around busying himself with preparation for the third battle they were going to go through, lifting up large boxes of bolt shells to transport to the heavy bolters. He had to keep the morale of his squad up if they were to face the onslaught of tyranide horrors. The oldest and most experienced sergeant, his wisdom often got the company out of hairy situations and ensured their survivability.

"Panasius! The Captain's heading over!" 2nd Sergeant Lutherian Soell called while monitoring the servitors who were fixing up a predator tank. His squad had suffered severe casualties and only 4 marines stood well enough to fight. Still, his courage shone brightly in the previous battle, as 2nd Sergeant Lutherian led his Assault Marines charging through the center and cut a bloody path through the tyranide creatures, creating a distraction while 3 predators moved to the right flank into position to cut the enemy into ribbons, and 2 squads of marines set up their heavy bolters on the left flank. His fearless charge had surprised the aliens for a few seconds before they counter charged and swarmed his squad from all directions. His squads agility and swordmanship, coupled with raw ferocity of the marines held the creatures at bay for several minutes, but there were simply too many to kill. Lutherian himself would've perished, if not for the Dreadnought that stomped its way in to pull him out of the massacre.

3rd Sergeant Rock Stallone grinned to see his old friend Lutherian still alive after being dragged out of the mess. "The Emperor's favour shines upon the skinny ones!" he had joked. Like his name suggested, Rock was a stout marine, so huge than only First Company's terminator armour was large enough for him. So in a way, a tough and strong marine was made even tougher and hardier, given his thick terminator armour and heavy bolt machine gun attached to his right arm, while a power fist crackled with electricity in his left fist. What he lacked in experience and intelligence, he made up for in strength and endurance. The only Space Marine not in First Comapny to ever don terminator armour, his size alone was usually enough to send enemies running for cover. But the one flaw in the terminator bolt machine gun was that it needed another marine to reload should it run out of ammunition, yet Sergeant Rock usually ran out of enemies before he ran out of ammo. Or, he could use his bolt machine gun as a huge club creatively.

The rest of the sergeants quickly jogged to where the Captain was gathering his seargeants for a briefing. Only squads 5, 7 and 8 did not send their sergeants. The sergeants of squad 5 and 7 were killed as they were entranched in the outposts, closest to the front lines, and Sergeant Killancer of squad 8 was laying the mines with the rest of his squad about 1 mile from where the meeting was taking place. About 500 mines, each about the size of a large frizbee, had already been put in place, with about 200 more to go. The mines should reduce the size of the swarm by at least 20%, Sergeant Panasius estimated.

Captain Rico watched his sergeants with pride, knowing he was going into battle with possibly the finest warriors the Blazing Angels have ever known. To die with these brave brethren was an honour he was happy to receive. He spoke into his vox, "Squad 9, anything to report?"

***

The smallest squad of the Blazing Angels was the scout squad. Lightly armoured and without heavy weapons, they seemed like the biggest liability to the company, but in fact served one of the most important roles of finding the enemy before the enemy found them.

The small squad of 5 men were quick on their feet, and deadly accurate with their sniper rifles, and they were sent to find signs of the weakness of the enemy - the hive mind. If they could locate one of those beasts, killing it would take away the driving force of the tyranide swarm, and drive them into confusion and disarray. Unfortunately, no chapter in the entire Imperial Grand Library ever spoke or described what a hive mind looked like, or was supposed to look like. These soldiers were relying on instinct, military training and common sense to figure out the key to winning this battle.

"Hey Silverthorn! See the huge lumbering monster at the back? That could be it!" an excited scout shouted.

Private Silverthorn looked in the direction the scout was pointing at and picked up the monster on his visuals. It was more than 12 miles away, but stood towering over the other mini-criters. It had to be at least 20 meters tall, walking on 6 legs, looking like a huge spider, only it had writhing tentacles on the front, like an octopus. Sure looked like that was the hive mind, he thought to himself. At any rate, better report it back to base.

"Wait! There's more of them coming! Isn't there supposed to be only one hive mind controlling them?" the excited scout asked.

Silverthorn swore. He was several seasons older than the young scout but it appeared that his eye sight wasn't as keen. He glanced through his binoculars again, and this time there wasn't one giant spider-squid thingy, there were 4. Ok, good news is that it probably isn't the hive mind and they have to keep looking. The bad news was that there were 4 of those things for the Blazing Angels to deal with. Then he heard the vox sqwuak "Squad 9, anything to report?"

"Captain, 4 giant spider-squids are coming with the tyranide swarm. They look like bad news, sir, really huge and scary looking!"

"I'm not asking you to tell me bad news, have you found the hive mind private?"

"No sir!"

"Well, then keep observing until you do. You do your job, we'll keep you from dying. Over and out."

Thought Captain can really be a pain in the rear, Silverthorn thought, and looked through his binoculars once again. "9-oh-2, seen anything to report?"

The other half of the squad was about 4 miles to the east of Silverthorn.

"902 reporting to 901. Be advised, winged tyranide heading our way. We're gonna have to point some rifles at the sky."

Sure enough, even as the tyranide creatures on the ground surged forward with the spider-squid beasts, a giant flock of bat-like creatures descended from the air. Several were wavering unsteadily, colliding into other bat-things and screehing in frustration, but most were silently flapping their wings and moving together with the ground tyranide swarm.

Silverthorn cursed, "Shit, this ain't good! Gotta vox back to the Captain, we've got to fall back to base, we're too exposed out here, sitting ducks for those bat-things!"

"Yeah we hear you. Rendezvous at check point C. 902 out."

Silverthorn picked up his gear and rifle, when his squad member froze in terror. "Silverthorn, look below! They're already coming through!" A few tyranide scavengers raced toward them, aware that they were being watched and eager to rip the spies to shreds. Fast runners with big fangs, like some rabid wild dogs. They were only about a hundred meters away and closing in on them.

Silverthorn flicked off the safety on his rifle. "Well then let's give them a warm welcome!"

***

"Gentlemen, we've got some interesting news. Seems that the tyranide are bringing out the big guns in this wave of attack. It either means that we've ruffled their feathers enough for them to really pay attention to us, or they've realised throwing canonfodder at us isn't going to get us out of their way. Either way, we're still stuck here until the Imperial Navy realises our ship has been destroyed and sets out here to check for survivors. That could take days or even weeks." Rico let the information sink into his sergeants for awhile before proceeding to tell them his battle plan.

"We're leaving this outpost by tonight."

Some of his sergeants were clearly stunned by the Captain's decision, while others merely nodded in ackowledgement, as if they had been expecting this plan sooner or later.

"I know there're not enough transport vehicles for all of us to head to the mountain post, but we cannot win this battle. The Codex Astartes states that in such a situation, we have to retreat, regroup and return to battle another time. In the mountains, the tyranides will not have the advantage of burrowing into the sand and hiding from our shells, and we'll have a better chance at surviving this." Rico held his breath before making the crucial announcement.

"But one squad has to stay behind to delay the aliens' progress. It is a suicide mission, and I volunteer to stay back with the squad who chooses to stay and fight."

Immediately there was an uproar of disapproval, or sergeants volunteering themselves and arguing who is better suited to the job of holding the tyranides off as long as possible, which squad is more experienced, and all other things. Rico held up his right hand and the group was silenced.

"We are Space Marines and we shall know no fear. To stay behind or to go to the mountains, neither shows a lack of resolve or strength. We will not disrespect the squad who chooses to retreat, nor will we worship the squad that stays to defend the outpost. Since you cannot decide amongst yourselves, I have decided for the company. Sergeant Panasius.."

The sergeant beamed with pride and responded, "Yes sir."

".. Ready all the squads with sergeants to move out in 15 minutes, taking all the vehicles capable of transporting Marines, but leave behind 2 predators and 2 servitors. Squad 5 and 7, to me. We will make final battle preparations to honour the glorious deaths of your sergeants, and pray that we may follow them in the blaze of glory in the service of the Emperor."

Panasius, Lutherian and Rock couldn't believe their ears even with the augmented sense. The Captain, with the 2 squads of only 14 men i total, we going to sacrifice their lives for the rest of them to escape. They looked at each other and nodded without a word. Then they stepped forward and dropped to one knee before their Captain. The other sergeants, seeing the 3 lead by example, immediately did the same and knelt before the Captain.

"Leave no man behind. From code 215 of the Codex." Panasius said.

"Your men are your charge and you shall not abandon them. From code 223 of the Codex." Lutherian said.

"When there is no hope for victory, there is no glory in retreat. From code 635 of the Codex." Rock uttered.

"And the Blazing Angels will burn the aliens to the ground!!" Panasius stood up and roared defiantly, causing the group of sergeants to raise their fists to the air and shout in triumph. "No Captain of mine will stand alone to face those scum, Codex or no Codex! We are brother Marines, none can withstand our wrath when we fight as one!!" he stared with defiance and anger at his Captain, but also with a fierce loyalty and sense of comradeship.

Captain Rico himself was at a loss for words. He had expected resistence to his plan, but not a united resistence. While angry at their act of insubordination, he was proud of his Marines. They were truly fearless, and willing to stand with him until the bitter end. They had used the Codex against him, and they were right. There was no place to run to which offered much shelter from the battle anyway, not the mountains or the jungles could provide any safety from the tyranide swarm for long. He was about to reply to Panasius' outburst when his vox cackled with the sound of gun fire and Silverthorn screamed.

***

New sequence for strike force!

Better write down the new sequence before I forget it by the next practice! this is only for the tom or bass parts, the snare parts have to ask Ian. something like a reverse paradiddle? there's other jam block / cow bell parts taht chow kiat was playing, but couldn't really get it. =P

L RR L R LL R (L is high hat or trash hat, R is snare)

temp is very fast, i think 120 or 130?

12 bars - new groove - bass line sound like the shakira song, 1 1 pause 12 12 (repeat)
1 bar fill - 1e NA 2e NA 3e NA 4e NA 1ena 2ENA Triplet end
4 bar - chow kiat bell intro (sounds like 123, 123, 123, 123)
3 bar - samba bass
1 bar - chow kiat bell solo
8 bar - samba-like groove (with pade buro leg movements)
4 bar - snare solo
8 bar - sudo solo (lift up sudo drum)
8 bar - samba-like groove n end
trash can
1 bar - triplets
4 bar - 6/8 with bass playing 1 N
4 bar - 6/8 with bass playing 123 1 N
12 bar - full 6/8 n end

this is like about 1/3 of the sequence only n we took around 1 hours to learn it, n still have not added the movements into the sequence! but i think its not bad, has a very happy party dancey feel to it.

had lots of fun with ck, Ian n neo, not just the playing n grooving, but the fellowshipping as well. really made my day after a lousy day of scolding n more scolding from my boss. starting to dread going to work, all i'm thinking is, when is the next time i screw up n get scolding again. sigh.. but i'll try to think positively, every time i get scolding i'm learning something. i hope! hahaha..

i was telling ck how i wish i can retire in 10 years, but thats quite unrealistic lah. i think will retire in 20 years time after i've made enough money, n go pursue my personal interests in music by backing Boon on drumfest and music events.

Monday, June 23, 2008

Rededicating my life back to God

So many things have happened and this week has been super hectic at work, so before I forget and get lost in my work, I better thank God for giving me the chance to rededicate my life back to Him last Sunday.

Thank You Lord, its been a long time. I'm back and ready and willing to do Your will once again.

Amen!

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Just updating whatever's happening this week..

Had a nice supper at prata house with daryl bk n joan last night, and a nice lunch treat by David Lim and the lawyers of the whole firm, while we went to check out the new office. its rather small compared to our firm office at SLT. sigh. i might not even get my own office anymore, simply just a desk n a computer with a shelf to put my files. and worse still, its at least about 8 minutes walk from the nearest MRT, chinatown mrt! that means i need to change train at douby guat mrt everyday n increase by travelling time by about 15 min per journey, which means half an hour more each day! sian man.. i really think travelling is quite a waste of time. esp when i'm hungry n end work late at 8 pm, i'll prob reach home close to 9 pm! that leaves me like 3 hours max to do my stuff before i need to sleep at 12 midnight.

yes, n i need to wake up even earlier, prob at 7.15 am now instead of my usual 7.40 am. need to leave the house by 7.45 in order to reach office by 8.45 am. oh well, 7 hours of sleep should be sufficient for me bah. but will prob need a month or so before i get used to the new time table! sleeping at 12 everyday, its like so early! but i guess i gotta get used to it.. i'm not getting any younger, n need my sleep to stay awake during the day!

n i'm still struggling at work with new things everyday. so far i've not come across many things which i can safely say i can do the job on my own without help. this is crazy, spending 4 years in law sch n 1 year doing pupilage n PLC course n i'm still not adequately trained to do legal work?? i really think whatever i've studied in NUS is only applied like maybe 20% of the time? the rest is like, totally useless as to what im' doing as my job now.

oh well at least i can look fwd to cycling on sat night, n perhaps the overnight pm on fri will give me a fresh revelation n spiritual revival from God.. its been so long since i've attended any prayer meeting. that means i'll prob sleep most of the saturday away being exhausted from the prayer meeting n to have enough energy for the night cycling.

think i'll go for a jog tonight to warm up my muscles for the cycling.

Monday, June 16, 2008

My soul cries out for more of You my Lord..

Dear God...

Couldn't sleep well last night. Maybe it was due to the hot weather, maybe it was because I was stressed over work, maybe it was because of the heavy dinner which I ate, or maybe another reason. Or it could be because I was pondering over my relationship with God, and also with Joan.

Its been like, ages since I read the Bible or really prayed. Not the ten minute kind of prayer, but a really deep conversation with God about my life kind of prayer. I mean yeah, I pray every time I encounter difficulty during the week, I pray when someone needs healing or a prayer request, I pray for things and for other pple and for myself. But I never really prayed a prayer which was directed at getting to know God and who He is, and what is it that He wants to say to me.

In other words, I've made many shallow prayers, the shopping list prayers, the selfish and short-sighted prayers. Worse still I try to help pple when I'm not exactly doing well myself. Didn't it say somewhere in proverbs, when the blind leads the blind, both will fall into the pit?

I harbour bitterness towards certain pple, I have this haughty attitude (I guess it comes with the job eh) and I don't care much about doing things for God anymore. Its just to do my will, not His will.

I don't even feel like going cell group anymore, or service for that matter. I can't stand how fake I am sometimes, lifting my hands and praising God when deep down I'm angry and hurt at something or someone. How hypocritical can I get?

And its making me sick. Spiritually, emotionally, even physically. Literally falling sick.

I don't know how to get back to the heart of worship, I don't know how to come back to God. To regain the relationship with Him tat I've lost, what should I do? Reading the Bible should be a first step, but honestly I find it boring to read the same old stories again. But what if God speaks to me differently this time? I'll never know if I never read His Word..

I've got to try. I'm not praying 1 hour for 21 days. I mean, I don't even pray more than 15 mins a day. But I promised God I would try. I also promised Joan I would try, for the sake of our relationship as well. For if we seek His kingdom first, all things will be added to us right?

I've been giving tithe n offerings faithfully becos I've experienced the financial blessings thru giving to God. But what I need now is not more money, but more presence of God, more of the Holy Spirit, more of You in my life.

You before me, in everything. Help me God.

In Jesus name,
Amen

Friday, June 13, 2008

Friday the 13th of June!

Friday morning 9.38 am. Coincidentally, the date today is actually friday the 13th! I wonder if anything bad will happen today. I mean not just small scale unlucky events, but large scale stuff, to see if friday the 13th really is an unlucky day! First thing of the day, already feel sleepy cos nothing much to do today, waiting for my boss to be free to check with her some stuff, but other than that, i just have to follow up on a few emails and i'm basically quite free! that's good lah, i think i can go for my medical examination later since i'm quite free today.

No cg tonight too, gonna meet simon yk n william for dinner and then prob go play some CS or other lan games. really looking forward to spending time chilling n relaxing with friends! work life is really draining n tiring not to mention frustrating n irritating at times..

Oh well at least my new colleague is pretty nice to help me with stuff that I am not sure of given her previous working experience. at least things pick up a bit towards the afternoon so i have some work to do before the end of the day so i can confidentally leave at 7 pm sharp tonight! just have a few files to read through and documents to draft before the end of the day. God get me thru this week with no more mistakes in my work!!

later tonight maybe go help Millie move her drum kit from studio to her house, depends on whether the car is available n whether the studio is open or not lor. hopefully her family doesn't get too annoyed by the new noise maker in the house. hehz.

didn't really like the new warhammer 40k book i rented from the book shop last night, read the first few pages n felt it was a bit too boring too much story n not enough description n detail of the characters, making them very "cardboard" n boring.

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Space marines.. they shall know no fear.

Its 3.30 pm in the office and I'm practically stoning cos I've finished most of my work and just need to wait for my boss to be free to start work on another project. I've got a few other outstanding stuff, but I really don't know how to start on those so I'd rather wait to confirm what to do with my boss.. At this rate I wonder when I'll be ready to "strike it out" on my own and go solo without much help from anyone.

But anyway had an interesting talk with Pui Kwan, the new malaysian lawyer who just joined our firm. She seems quite nice, a bit overly enthu about work kind, but overall quite alright to work with. not very interesting though. hahaha. had a short chat with millie, guess she's also bored at work like me. wouldn't it be nice if i could extend my lunch break to 3 pm? hahaha.. its been a really slow afternoon, i've spend the past half hour reading up on space marines forums and packing up my room to make more space on my table for work. the scariest thing is, my big boss's wife is just talking about work with one of the secretaries right outside my room, and if she sticks her head in, she'll see me blogging at work! hahaha.. this is really living life on the edge eh? hehz.

But i can't help it, i'm really super bored. guess i'll look for more websites to surf while waiting for my boss to be free. quite interesting also lah, listen to my office lawyers bitch about ex-lawyers who have left. hehz. n the other secretaries join in the gossiping n criticising. makes me think, when i'm on MC or when i'm on leave, worse still when or if i decide to leave the firm? but then again, probably won't matter what pple say when i'm gone becos i've got to accept it as a fact of life, pple will always talk behind your back...

I've really got nothing much to do now. sigh. gotta walk around n pretend to be busy until 6 pm then. nothing much to blog also cos not in the mood to.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Afternoon blues..

Don't know why I always feel so hyper sleepy after lunch everyday, even if I don't take a very full lunch! Feel like taking a 15 min nap sometimes after lunch before going back to work, but then again, I don't like the feeling of being roughly disturbed from sleep, I think i'll get a worse feeling of sleepiness with a slight headache if i really do that!!

I wonder wat r e remedies for such a thing? pls don't give me that crap about not enough sleep cos i definitely sleep more than 7 hours a day liao, don't tell me tat isn't enouhg?

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

What is this feeling..

Listening to West Grand Boulevard songs and somehow they're making me feel very nostalgic..

I think that's what I'm feeling anyway. Missing the times I went jamming with the band at least once a week, missing my JC friends who I played CS with almost every week in JC, missing my ex-cell group members who liked going to the beach to play volleyball, missing my friends who liked me for who i am n not because of what i can do for them..

The lyrics of Backwards.. I'm losing you..

Flights of fancy.. What i am is not all good, is not all bad, its ok.. time has come, wish we could, get it back, its too late...

Fight.. make some sense i'm coming down.. falling down, to feel my fight..

Emo-angst-nostalgic feeling in these songs..

What exactly do i miss?

Being able to speak my mind without being restrained by the morals and ideals imposed upon me by society and religion?

Having the time to go out and play and have fun and enjoy spending time talking and playing and shouting and laughing with friends from oh-so-long ago...

Monday, June 09, 2008

Further proof of one fact in the world - when it rains, it pours.

Both metaphorically and literally.

Today's the 9 of June 2008, my dad's 56 birthday. and instead of having dinner with my family, what am i doing? slogging it out at work on a monday night in office. actually, ordinarily i would've just grumbled a little n then take it with a pinch of salt, then blow it off as just another busy working day.

but not today.

Its like, how come good things never happen for very long, but bad things seem to continue n build up and every good thing you just experienced went down the drain?

First of all, for those who don't know, after my first day of work on june 3, everything seemed fine and perfect, my boss threw a lunch party for me, i got my practicing cert, i was looking forward to horse riding for the weekend, etc.

then i was down with high fever. not just normal fever, but the really shivery kind. when the slightest wind send your whole body into a shivering spasm, even though i was underneath the blankets. so naturally i went to see a doctor, who, given my state of sleeplessness and fever, wanted to give me 2 days MC, but i said no need, only 1 day is enough, n I probably would go back to work the next day. i knew i had work to do, come on.

but i had fever the whole day from 37.5 up until 38.9 degrees. so naturally i couoldn't go to work in that kind of a condition right?

oh yeah, and i lost my handphone in a cab while taking it to see the doctor. damn thieves, switched off the phone and probably took it to sell. nevermind, at least theives will go to hell. we'll see who has the last laugh.

so thursday morning when i went to see the doctor again for the fever, i also pointed out to her that my right calf was swollen. in fact it was swollen n red n hard, ballooned up to almost the size of well, a balloon. ok, well i exaggerate, but it was pretty bad. you can ask the two doctors who examined me and gave me MC until 11 june, which is this thursday. because i was supposed to stay home n rest my leg n not move around too much.

but the worst isn't even being sick with fever and infection on my right calf. missing the horse riding was almost inconsequential to me, but the malaysia trip totally made me pissed off. the lunch at the so-called country club resort was horrible, the food sucked, oh and it took more than 1 hour for a steak to come, the place was filled with houseflies buzzing around, and the waitress would forget what you ordered about 3 minutes later.

then the gruelling 2 hour drive to the resort, which i must admit, looked rather beautiful in the sunset, cos it was near a very large lake which probably led to the sea further up or something, there were yatches and boats and it was very nice. after a dinner (with NO SEAFOOD FOR ME because i was still down with the inflammed leg and they had crab and prawns and giant lobsters in front of me!) we went to see some fireflies. yawn.

but when we reached the chalet unit we were totally shocked. i don't have the pictures to disgust you, but imagine seeing about 30+ large winged insects outside your house door. quite gross right?

now imagine about 100 large winged insects in the living room. crawling and flying on the sofa, the table, the floor, the ceiling, the walls, everywhere. also in the rooms, on the beds, on the curtains. like straight out of a horror movie. i was like, shit, what the hell is this. apparently we weren't the only family to have such a nightmare of a room too, others got bees and roaches and other flying bugs. malaysia resorts are BANNED from holiday spots forever.

we called the management to come down to the unit to settle it, they said it was a common thing, h they'd clear it up within half an hour so we went to the bar to listen to the live band or music or whatever that could calm us down.

what we got? a trio of jumping overgrown screaming chimpanzees with one blind n deaf baboon. oh, i'm not describing the zoo creatures or the circus. the band there was that bad. really really bad. so bad it almost made me want to return to the horror house of flying bugs. talk about hobson's choice.

the singing, if you can call that singing, was horrible, the music was terrible, the musician there was always playing the wrong notes, i don't know how on earth could they let such crap play at the lounge there.

we decided we had enough and went back to the unit. had a restless sleep, feeling even more tired the next day.

oh well at least the archery and canoeing was quite fun. the only thing enjoyable on the trip. then after lunch it was back to singapore again, jam at the causeway for over TWO whole hours, why? becos they didn't want to take the second link thats why. i practically wasted my afternoon away at the back of the car, trying not to throw up.

and this morning, what is the first thing that the office pple say to me? that stupid old admin woman came to give me a lecture on how irresponsible i was to leave my work unfinished and take MC, and i'm like, what the hell, as if i chose to be sick? she went on and on about how i'm not even worked for more than a day before i take MC, blah blah blah, i almost wanted to shout at her to F#$^ off and let me do my work. she made comments like "no wonder david say better don't approve leave for the staff, if not they sure fall sick when they come back from overseas, all also like that.. " blah blah blah.. n complain n nag at me for 15 minutes. what the hell, she's just some small clerk who work for umpteen years in the same place with no family, probably no friends and no future except for the deathbed. i mean which loser stays in office until; 8 pm and eat subway when there's NO more work to do? losers like her who need to boss pple around to feel appreciated. i give her face becos she's so much older than me, and i need her to help me with my admin stuff for the firm.. for now i put up with her. cross me again outside of work and when i QUIT this job, i'm going to smack her face into a lamp post.

and i'm still waiting for the client to call for the overseas teleconference. damn it.

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

Events that happened in the past 2 weeks!

Kinda busy to blog in detail, so just a quick list of things and blessings for the past week or so!

26 - 29 May Hong kong trip!
26th - touch down, shopping, avenue of stars
27th - disneyland
28th - ocean park, more shopping at mongkok
29th - shopping for food and snacks and Joan's nike shoes, back to Singapore at 12.30 am!

30 May - laser quest with cg (waste of money)

2 june - MC didn't go work, celebrated 1 year anniversary with my darling Joan
3 june - back to work, boss treating us for lunch

so in a nutshell that's about it. and in the following weeks to come:

7-9 june - horseback riding and resort stay in JB to celebrate dad's birthday and father's day
21-23 june - Genting trip with momo, elaine, hanxian, jeanette, joan n myself

oh yeah and i almost forgot.. oh man this one is gonna be expensive but in honour of tradition..

20 june - my treat to the company's corp department and big boss
( i think need to save up at least about $400 for this??)

oh well, will just think of it as an investment for my work life lah.